So today is my birthday...........7th September 2011

It has been quite sometimes since the last time I remembered celebrating my birthday.  It's not that nobody remembered it, as there was a number of wishes went into my phone, as much as the modern day FB.  Last year I decided to hide the date, and still there were few friends who truly remember it as it is...my birthday without having FB to remind them.  I truly appreciate that special thought, dearests.

Throughout my whole life, the past 31 birthdays (my 32nd is yet to come, as now the time is 4.05 am, 7.9.2011.  Nobody is up yet.), there were only 2 or 3 occasions where I remembered someone helped me to celebrate the day.  First is when I was in Form 5, while our 5 Science was the 'nomad' class, we were housed in Biology Lab.  Well, there was a 'conspiracy' among my closest friends, the 'Kepala Agung', Zalinasuria, Christine and Lim Pui Lang.  But I guess their amateurism in planning a 'surprise' showed as I sensed they must be up to something 'not good' when suddenly Zalina asked me to accompany her to the restroom.  Yet, to cut the story short, I had to run away from their 'shower of blessings' made up from Enchanteur talc and...I couldn't remember if that was all being thrown at me.  I had a mouthful of the powder, and a handful of them on/in my hair.  That was awful, but that was the most memorable one I ever experienced...the fun and the laughter..I really miss those days, and the friends I had back then.

Then, a very close friend of mine initiated the next 2 celebrations, back in 1998 and 2000 or 2001, I couldn't remember.  They were nice, humble, very small but thoughtful celebrations.  Thank you very much, dear friend, Cecilia.

The remaining years (apart, of course, those baby and toddler years) I spent it on my own.  I loved to make a mini 'bonfire', and spent an hour or two sitting by the fire, at our lawn, looking deep into the fire, beyond the fire, towards my past, present and future.  I had so many thoughts back then, and the time I spent near the fire was spent to the fullest, reflecting on everything, the good and bad that I've done, the future  I wanted and everything.  It soothed me, calmed me, very much.  After which, I will go back into the house, locked myself up in my small room, and started to write whatever it was that crossed my mind, especially about my life and all things related.

So which is my favourite?  I don't know, probably the most intimate, the most personal one.  I don't know.  Today, is the day I look forward to.  It's not that it could be the most memorable birthday as the people I love are here, or anything related to the celebration, but it is the fact that there are people who care enough to be there for me whenever I needed them.  I really, really thank them.

Above all, I want to thank the Lord above for the opportunity to face another day, to go through another birthday.

God bless everyone.