I am sorry I didn’t look into your eyes today
And convey my feelings
Connecting me to you every waking hour
I am sorry
I didn’t say thanks to every little deed
You’ve lovingly done for my sake
Bearing my changing air and temper
I am sorry
I didn’t remember you in my dream last night
Because you haunted my mind
I couldn’t tell whether it’s real or just my imagination
I am sorry
I couldn’t care for you the night before
Because I am afraid that I care for you too much
That I might forget there are limits and boundaries to adhere
I am sorry
I couldn’t help but feeling helplessly falling deeper in love with you
Wishing and hoping future life with you
Growing old and diminish, all only with you.
Wow...this is so authentic. I mean..I can relate this poems to what I feel myself especially the last 2 paragraph. I have the same fear..the same denial..towards my own dearest. I am in denial still I guess! Am I hurting him? Good poems friend. Keep it up.
ReplyDeleteOhh..I would like to ask you if my latest post visible in my blog. It's something about blog awards I get. I have posted it a few days ago but still got no comments. Not that I expect comments but I wonder if something is wrong with the settings in my blog. Just curious. Let me know ok. I post it after my post titled 'Just A Brief Stop'. Thanks.
Found the problem with your post, Chris. Already read the post, great one.
ReplyDeleteAnd what can I say except,...'Wow', you really can read between the lines. A denial is not something I expected others to say, but you are good at poems, I shouldn't be surprised (although I really am). This is a love poem, in sarcastic, or negative tone. I wrote it back in 2004...
I just want to relive the memory I think I am losing due to life's pressures and stress. What a life...
So, you say that particular post was indeed invisible before? kenapa itu ahh?
ReplyDeleteWell, when we want and can do more to someone we love but we hold ourselves to do so for the fear of getting deeper in love with them, for the fear of sooner or later we will eventually lose them..that is denial to me.
Yes, invisible, no update, unless I 'manually' go to your main blog site, not on the post itself.
ReplyDeleteYah, that's the message I wanted to deliver, although what I felt when writing it was a total different thing. You are right, denial is the word here. Bravo...!! Great one.
Lain cerita..I plan to go to kk this friday. Attending a friend wedding. You remember the friend who drive me to see you last July? She is getting married..finally. hehehe. I'm happy for her.
ReplyDeleteAlone? That's good. I think I remember her. Yah, wish her all the best wishes and may God bless her and the new family she's going to have.
ReplyDeleteYes. Alone. Andre is invited too but he is busy so I have to go alone.
ReplyDeleteOhh..I have a new post..in case it's invisible again. :)))
Okay, and you'll be here until...? Where's the wedding venue?
ReplyDeleteThis time blogger doesn't disappoint.. I got the update. Interesting entry you have there. Thank you for sharing.
Until early Sunday only. That if..nothing holding me coz..my sisters also plan to go to kk from sdk.
ReplyDeleteThe Venue is in Tuaran this coming Saturday. Catholic Church in Tuaran and..the reception also in Tuaran. Kg Marabahai?? Something like that. The groom's house I think. I haven't get the map anyway. Huhuhu.
IC. Mcm pernah kudengar nama kampung tu, tapi x sure where exactly it is located.
ReplyDeleteSkijap jak kan kamu cni... Anyway, have a great time here, okay?