The search is over.................

Yes, you read me right. My search for a long lost friend finally over, surprisingly abruptly and at a very unlikely place.

Zalinasuria Ab. Hamid, finally I am able to type her name here, knowing that one of these days she'll be able to read this (that will depend on me...hahaha..). 

The surprised (me) meeting completely took me aback.  I am quite slow in recognising people, and slower still in giving any reaction towards them, but this one is like....I don't know, maybe a link to my past that made it so easy to once again talk to each other, so comfortably. 

I was so close to miss it if it was not for our lil' girl, who insisted we go to 1B (for her it was B1).  I was enjoying the show, Sabahan Artists performances when she suddenly surprised me with a tap on my shoulder (or is it a handshake...forgot already).

The problem is, I still can't believe it.  After those long, 'agonising' search, I am having problem believing the end of it would be this easy, way too easy.  Maybe God pitied me.

Well, she is what I thought she is.  Still the same vibrant her, a little thinner, or maybe she was as thin as she was in school.  Has 2 children, on the way to becoming three.  I would love to have a long chat, at least once before she departs for KL, but I guess it was not my luck.

One thing that I am sure feeling now is, it is not the same feeling I expected when I finally able to see her.  There's a kind of gigantic wall separating me from the past.  I truly loved and enjoyed my past, and she being a large part of it that shaped me to who I am today really made me feel it's all that matters.  But leading a much, much different life, I think past is to be past, and I should adjust to live the present, while still cherishing the past.  

Ok, now I don't know what I am writing.  I better stop.  All in all, it was the best thing that happened to me yesterday, meeting you, dear friend.  I hope only for the best for you and your family.

Hope to hear from you very soon.  (Segan juga mo sms slalu nih...gangguan nanti.)

Another Dream that is TOO REAL

Last Saturday, as I took my 'little extra long' sleep, I had another dream that seems too real for me.  It was about my long lost good friend back in high school, the one that I kept writing about in this blog.

I didn't remember thinking anything about her before I went to sleep, but in that dream, I met her (or rather she was the one who came to me).  She told me that she had wanted to meet me in person for quite a long time now.  Well, in that dream, at least, I knew I did want the same thing too.  For a person like me, who before I had her as my friend, being ignored was normal to me.  So, after for the first time in my life I was treated like a real person, a friend and being needed, it was really something that I could never forget, not this in this entire lifetime.

Back to the dream, we hugged and we talked, comfortably, like we've never been separated before.  It was a bliss, all that laugh and never ending talks... Then, we shared our problems, we cried.  The scenes were too real, as if I, my whole being, my physical body was in it.

Then when we came to the most important part of the meeting, where she was about to tell me where and when to meet her again, I woke me up.  What a disappointment...!!!  I could use it as a clue to continue my search.

Anyway, it was a good dream.  At least I can meet my good friend in my dreams, though it may not be possible in real life.

The fire is dying...

See, the excitement is dying. Actually I shouldn't expect too much. Her last blog entry was in May 2008, and no other entry after that. I guess she just started, got excited, then couldn't find time after that to update her blog. Just hoping she won't forget the blog once and for all. Hmm, I wonder how will I make her to look at her blog again.

Is there any other way to get attention from someone on the net? If there is, please share with me. Thanks a lot.

I cannot believe my luck today!!

Ok, this maybe a bit too 'advanced', but I think the person I mentioned about in my most recent post, I finally found her. Well, friend, if you can read this, I am eagerly waiting for your email, or at least new comment in (following my comment) your own blog, because that comment will be sent to my email, for my copy.

I was, and is too excited but I didn't mention that in my comment, afraid that I got the wrong person. However, judging from the picture, her degree, her childhood experiences and etc..etc, I think I have a strike here.

Anyway, I don't want to let the excitement die too soon, hope it will never be. I am actually amazed by the power of internet. I have been scrutinizing all the records my hands could reach to trace this friend of mind, but never succeeded. Don't misunderstand me, I am not a 'peeping tom', it's just this promise that was made almost 10 years ago. I am not a person who can give promises and leave them just like that. Not me.

So, I guess my effort finally paid off. Or is it the power of telepathy, that finally moved her to start her own blog and let me finally 'found' her? Now, I don't know, but back in school, it happened too many times.

Ok, hoping to receive good news.

Adios, amigos...