Yes, you read me right. My search for a long lost friend finally over, surprisingly abruptly and at a very unlikely place.
Zalinasuria Ab. Hamid, finally I am able to type her name here, knowing that one of these days she'll be able to read this (that will depend on me...hahaha..).
The surprised (me) meeting completely took me aback. I am quite slow in recognising people, and slower still in giving any reaction towards them, but this one is like....I don't know, maybe a link to my past that made it so easy to once again talk to each other, so comfortably.
I was so close to miss it if it was not for our lil' girl, who insisted we go to 1B (for her it was B1). I was enjoying the show, Sabahan Artists performances when she suddenly surprised me with a tap on my shoulder (or is it a handshake...forgot already).
The problem is, I still can't believe it. After those long, 'agonising' search, I am having problem believing the end of it would be this easy, way too easy. Maybe God pitied me.
Well, she is what I thought she is. Still the same vibrant her, a little thinner, or maybe she was as thin as she was in school. Has 2 children, on the way to becoming three. I would love to have a long chat, at least once before she departs for KL, but I guess it was not my luck.
One thing that I am sure feeling now is, it is not the same feeling I expected when I finally able to see her. There's a kind of gigantic wall separating me from the past. I truly loved and enjoyed my past, and she being a large part of it that shaped me to who I am today really made me feel it's all that matters. But leading a much, much different life, I think past is to be past, and I should adjust to live the present, while still cherishing the past.
Ok, now I don't know what I am writing. I better stop. All in all, it was the best thing that happened to me yesterday, meeting you, dear friend. I hope only for the best for you and your family.
Hope to hear from you very soon. (Segan juga mo sms slalu nih...gangguan nanti.)
It's good to hear that you finally found her. I know how it feels to 'long' for someone that was so close in our heart and has become a large part of our life. It is indeed so 'agonising'. Anyway...good to hear that..and I am happy for you.
ReplyDeleteYeah, immediately after the meeting I felt a strong urge to call, but I didn't want to talk over the phone. I thought we could meet in Labuan, yet no luck there.
ReplyDeleteI am sensing a bit of uneasy feeling here, forgive me if I am wrong. Best for us to meet, okay?
Thanks for feeling happy for me.
Uneasy feeling? If there is..rest assured..it has nothing to do with you my friend.
ReplyDeleteI do love to meet you very much. Long to chat like the old times. Tell me when you are free.
There, finally we met. But, I was too sleepy to enjoy the meeting. Thanks for the beautiful conversation, long time don't have one.
ReplyDeleteThanks for your time, dear friend. Am waiting for an update in your blog... :)
I am afraid you have to wait a little bit longer my friend. I am still have some problem with the new laptop and the broadband. I do online sometimes, but too uncomfortable updating my blog using someone else laptop and racing with the time.
ReplyDeleteBut..the problem will be solved soon I hope. Just keep on updating your blog. I read it.