A Bit Too Paranoid...

I took another leave yesterday.  Seems like my poor Boss has to bear with this difficult person.  I am lucky to have such an understanding superior like him, and well, I won't take any advantage on his kindness.

So, why the leave?  Besides not having enough rest the night before, I finally decided to give my worry (about my state of health) a rest, once and for all.  You see, I am always attacked by this 'mysterious' pain in my chest.  My heart palpitate, and whenever it happens, it numbs the surrounding area, my left arm, left jaw, neck and back.  I wouldn't be worried if it only attack during sport, I mean that should be normal, right?  I was tired and in greater need of oxygen.  However, when it started to attack without warning at anytime it feels like want to, that started the worry.  

I had my ECG in 2006, when I was 5 months pregnant, that was when I warded for the first time after fainted in our office.  The test turned out okay.  That should be my great assurance, but considering my damaging diet during the last few months and daily meals at McDonalds for 2 weeks, I think my health had turned 180 degrees than me in 2002 or 2006.  I had to ease myself from the worry and enjoy my life again.

So, day meeting with doctor turned to evening one, giving way to impromptu program I had with a friend.  Really enjoyed myself.  Thanks to her for taking time off to accompany me.  I went to Poliklinik Permai in Penampang (I declared the clinic as my personal panel clinic due to warm reception and very, very affordable charge/fee).  I dreaded the meeting because I am notorious at describing my ailment to doctor.  The worst is past, my anxiety was just a false alarm.  I can still be active (for this I really am thankful, couldn't imagine life without sport) and all I have to do is to wisely manage my stress.  Hmm, I didn't notice I was under pressure all these whiles.  Well, will look at things positively, and try not to overdo my thinking again.  Could be my work, who knows?

It's a great feelings, indeed,  to be able to be free from worry, again.  Thank you God for helping me find my serenity.  Let's paaarrttyyyy....!!!!  (hah...I wish!)