Life as a mother was totally new to me, yet it feels like I've known it for centuries. Now our daughter is turning 3 years this coming 31 December, and it feels like just yesterday I held her in my arms, so small, amazingly beautiful, a great wonder to my eyes.
Days with her at home during weekends and holidays are not quiet. There are times when she acts so angelic, and I would like to forever hug and kiss her. There are times she is trying my patient that if anyone does not know me better, I'll be pictured as an abusive mother.
Last weekend, we were just lazing at home. Once in a while I tested her memory, asking questions that I hope she'll remember answering if anyone ask her. Just 2 simple questions: 1. What's mommy's name? She'll answer "Aiiiiii...viiii". 2. What's your name? "Nicollle". It seems a very simple conversation between mom and daughter, but my heart exploded with pride and love looking at her, hearing her saying my name, so proudly. Little children like her are so sincere in expressing their feelings, without any effort to mask their emotion. That's why we always see little children bear almost no burden on their shoulder, as what they feel, they will pour it out straightaway. Good thing is, they'll pour it out not just to anyone, but only to the ones they trust.
I am always looking forward to spending days with her, but my work and obligations towards my family limit my freedom to do just that. The only thing I pray and hope for is for her to grow encircled by my love, and God's love, knowing she is forever God's and mine. She'll grow up and fulfill God's plan upon her, not MY plan. She is, in fact, a BLESSING from GOD.
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